Life is so full of good gifts.
And I didn’t always notice them until I began counting them.
This weekend was chock full.
Watching Aubrey shine in her play. Celebrating the birth of my son fifteen years ago on Saturday, celebrating the births of John’s mom and aunt on Sunday. A weekend full of love, laughter and family. WEC on Sunday evening. I was overcome by His presence with me during worship and as I glanced to the side, I saw our five young people worshipping with whole hearts. My soul sang and my mother/shepherd’s heart swelled. Bible study on Sunday night with our kids and our friends. We gathered outside with a campfire and lifted our voices to Him. We watched the incense of our praises rise.
Big things to be thankful for- birthdays, special people, worship, His presence.
And He is in the little things too. Red kool-aid, Aubrey’s ball dress in Cinderella, a warm breeze, laughter ringing out in the backyard, lime cilantro chicken, Claire saying, NO and MINE!, kids on the swings, mud pies, flowers, the baby birds, Lila’s prayer, the smell of coffee brewing, their weekend long hide and seek games…I could go on and on and on.
I said to John on Sunday night, “We are in such a good season right now. I refuse to be afraid that something awful is about to happen.”
Because that’s where I usually go. To WHAT could go wrong. To what must certainly be the recompense for enjoying a good life. Because deep down, I fear that I’m not good enough for His best. I fear that He has given me all the good earthly gifts I’m ever going to get.
I have no trouble believing and accepting that “in this world, you will have trouble” part of John 16:33. I understand that this is a fallen world and that Bad Things happen. I think I subscribe to it a bit TOO wholeheartedly. Because sometimes it’s hard for me to believe the other side of it. Sometimes, I just stand on the fact that the only GOODNESS I am guaranteed is His presence in my life and the fact that I’ll spend all eternity with Him. That’s enough, isn’t it? Those good gifts are the best gifts.
But there is more to life than just persecution and trouble.
“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” Psalm 27:13
He is a good Father and He gives good gifts to His children. Not just the eternal ones. He is faithful to use the hard things, to stand with us when we suffer and struggle. And those gifts are immeasurable, eternal, beautiful.
But He is also in the smell of the spring breeze, my favorite song, a warm blanket, a good dog and a million and one other things. He is also in those moments where you think things just can’t get any better. He is in it all because every good and perfect gift comes from Him.
And all of these little things and big things and in between things that I record in my journal day in and day out are the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.