Early morning and I am the only soul awake.
It’s uncharacteristically quiet in a house that usually vibrates with voices, movement, music and life.
I breathe deep.
I feel Him stirring my heart to pray.
But when I close my eyes and open my hands to receive, no words come at all.
I am still.
And that’s when I realize that’s the purpose this morning. To sit and be still in Him.
It’s so hard for me to open up my heart and my hands and to just be still and quiet. A small part of me always wonders…”Is the offering I bring going to be enough for Him?”
But it is, because what He wants is me.
My sacrifice of praise this morning is to just be still in His presence.
I Have Calmed and Quieted My Soul
A Song of Ascents. Of David.
131 O Lord, my heart is not lifted up;
my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
too great and too marvelous for me.
2 But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.
3 O Israel, hope in the Lord
from this time forth and forevermore.
Psalm 131 Listen!
I have calmed and quieted my soul.
I have been still in the Presence of the One who holds it all together. I do not do enough of this. No, I’m the one running hysterical into the throne room, throwing herself at His feet and begging for this, that or the other thing. Or, I’m the one with the short bullet line prayers- where are my keys? Help this person with this. Heal so and so. I love you and I’m thankful and I’ll spend more time with you later.
How much more would my life change if I took these moments to just BE with Him? To not try and solve My World’s problems, to not just beg for miracles and provision, to not just put Him off for times that are convenient for me. How much more would my life change? He renews me as I sit in silence. He sharpens me. He fills my heart with His goodness.
These moments go by so quickly and little ones are stirring…big girls are rising…the phone rings, the dog barks.
The moment of stillness passes so quickly but its residue lingers.