Lord, Be My Helper

Some days, circumstances seem to well up and overflow and I get to feeling kind of stressed.  All of these things that I am thinking about, they just crash in like waves on the sand and I am bowled over.

Lately, I wrestle, not knowing where we’re going or what we’re doing or where we’re going to end up.  We have goals and they are good goals, God inspired goals.  But I don’t know how we’ll get there.  So many things weigh so heavy on my mind.
Our future
Our family
Our finances
Our ministry
Our vocations
And not just the things that are specific to us but the things that are specific to God’s heart too.
Abortion
The orphan crisis
Trafficking
Murder
Poverty
The marginalized
The needy
The lonely
Where do we fit with all of these things?

I know, I know, I know.  Worrying is a sin.  And I know, I know, I know…worrying is not of God.  But that doesn’t change the fact that it still happens.  Sometimes, worry wins my heart right over and I just have to surrender to His rest to lay it all down.

I’m grateful that God doesn’t mind helping me to obey.

I know He has a plan and I know He will give it out as He sees fit.  And I know that our lives are all about eternal significance.

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Hebrews 11:39-40

These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised, since God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

Hebrews 11 is all about the heroes of the faith.  The HEROES of the faith.  We read that chapter when we need inspiration.  But the ends says that none of them saw the promise…because it’s about eternal significance and because God sometimes doles out the plan in measures that we can handle.  It’s not always about our lives here on earth but our lives eternal.

He has burdened my heart so heavy for the narrow path.  He has set my heart ablaze for the cause of the orphan and the lonely.  He has created in me a desire for a healthy, peaceful, God centered home.  He has given me these longings, He has made me to be a world changer.

But how?  When?  What will it look like?  When?  When?  When?  Did I mention when?  And how?

I don’t know.

I do know that Hebrews 11:16 says that God was not ashamed to be called their God.

So I puzzle all this out this morning, I stop making plans and just focus on His heart and finding myself in His rest.  I trust Him to reveal who He is and what He wants for me.  I trust Him to give me the plans, one piece at a time.

It’s scary.

But it’s okay.

I pray, “Lord, be my helper.”

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Lord, Be My Helper

Because it’s the only way I know to lay those worries and fears and anxieties down.

Lord, be my Helper.

 

 

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2 thoughts on “Lord, Be My Helper

  1. ChaCha, the first two phrases of your “about me” could be me as could be the last two sentences. And in many ways, the first two phrases about yourself may also help to explain the very real burdens and challenges you wrote about in this last little message. We do NOT choose to be introspective and I( maybe we ) do not choose to overthink. But these are as much a part of who I am as my old brown skin. And it may be that that these are inherently God-created pieces of you too.

    What does this mean? Well, worry about everything. Concern and compassion for all things that hurt, stifle, choke and get in the way of nurturing and love. At least for me. And it’s really, really hard to let go…and let God. Or to discern if your concerns are worthy of your time just now or a ploy of the Evil One to sidetrack you…and me…from what is most important at this very time in our lives.

    For sure, we can NOT do it all. Anytime. And sometimes our best efforts will NOT change the ugliness and pain in the world…or our community …our church…or our family. So, what then?

    Accept this reality. And meanwhile, pray that God helps you discern what your focus should be NOW. NOW! NOW! Maybe one thing; maybe two. Maybe NONE. Sometimes, becoming aware of the hurts of the world is the first step in HIS helping us find our way to minister. Sometimes, the best place to be takes TIME….alot of time.

    And as you love and care for and guide your family, always #1 when they’re little and learning, write what’s on your heart. Share it with others who may be struggling with the same issues; and pray and wait for God’s plan for you to become known. But do so with JOY and abandonment in HIS LOVE for HE does love us, as weird, wired and wonderful as we are.

    In HIs Love, Lena ( Mimi )

  2. It’s funny, I hadn’t thought of it like that. I likely would NOT have chosen to be such an over thinker. It is so hard to let go, to surrender and to trust. And every issue that crosses my path, personal or otherwise seems so big…We really can’t do it all and that’s where leaning on God comes in. We have to lean, so that we give attention to the things He has for us. The things He has planned for us to make a difference in.
    I am taking your advice and running with it and that is my prayer today. Help me God, see my focus for NOW.
    You are such a blessing to me, Mimi. Love to you today.

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