Today, I am going to a birthday party.
It’s a birthday party for a sweet little girl turning three years old and this is the first birthday party she’s ever had. Maybe the first birthday anyone has taken note of.
She was adopted from China.
I made her a little piece of art last night and I spent a lot of time trying to figure out what verse of Scripture I wanted to use.
I landed on James 1:17. Every good and perfect gift comes from above.
Aila is a good and perfect gift. Her smile is infectious and when she claps those sweet little hands, everyone falls to pieces. This verse perfectly sums up who she is to her family. This little girl is truly beloved by her parents and her sister and brothers, her extended family and her family of friends too. She is a much prayed for, much adored little treasure.
But in her country, she was not seen as a treasure. She was not seen as a good and perfect gift. Aila has Down Syndrome.
And it strikes me that it is just like God to shine a light on a jewel like Aila, so that others can see her beauty…where some tried to hide her away….He would not have that.
And that makes me think about God and gifts even more…because some of the gifts He gives me, I’m not always grateful for. Some of the things that come my way do not seem like favor.
My first real blog post here was called Caroline and the Puddle and the gist was that we were walking our then puppy to the sound to play and jump in the water. She saw a puddle on the way and was straining to get to it. It was the best thing she’d ever seen, because she didn’t know that the sound was in her future.
This is me. As I pray about our future- seminary, buying a house, adoption…I want it all right now. Waiting is so hard. Not knowing what is next is even harder.
And then, it dawns on me…not being in control is the hardest part. I think this is what God wants from me. To relinquish control and to surrender in the waiting. To trust that every good and perfect gift comes from Him. And to trust that He is a good father and He wants good things for me. To be still and know that He is God and to relish every day as it comes, taking notice of the good gifts all around me.
To stop wishing my life away on things that are to come. Those things are going to come whether I love the life I’m in or not. I might as well settle in and bask in His love. He is always there. He does not leave. He gives good gifts every single day.
Tonight, I will celebrate one of those good gifts. I will kiss Aila’s sweet cheeks and hug her parents and just be grateful with them, for the good and perfect gift that Aila is. For the way God loves us. He’s a good father.