Remember that time I almost died bringing Nora into the world? Remember how she was super premature and all kind of terrifying things happened?
That was easier than adoption.
Adoption requires much.
You must first prove yourself to your home study agency. You must then prove yourself to the country you’ve chosen. You must then prove yourself to grant agencies. Who also want tax documents for the past 75 years…at minimum.
Through it all, you have to hustle for funds because redemption is so, so costly. Fundraisers, yard sales (I HATE yard sales), crafts, asking, asking, asking. And it’s so beautiful to see your village rally, it’s so beautiful to see people come together to be part of a story of redemption. But you wonder if they are sick to death of you asking…
Then you travel across the world to meet a child you would die for that you’ve never ever met. You come with your heart in your hands and you savor the beauty of it all…and the heartbreak too. Because with adoption comes so much loss. You will take the child from the world she knows, from the only ones she knows…to a place that looks, sounds, smells and tastes different. To a language she’s never heard, into a family that has spent a year preparing for her but that she is just not prepared for.
You do the hard work of figuring out just what her “moderate to severe special needs” look like, what it means. You figure out what she needs. You batten down the hatches and stay close…parenting in a new way, because what she needs is to know that she can trust you. That she can let her guard down. That there will be enough food, that she has a place. That she is cherished.
God has done such a work in me through all of this. I’ve had to lean hard into Him. When fear threatened to steal my breath (and threatens to steal my breath), I lean hard. When things look like they are unraveling or when issues arise or when it’s looking impossible…I just have to remember…
He called us to this.
He loves Sissy. She is His.
And He owns the cattle on a thousand hills. He changes the hearts of kings. He is One who finishes what He’s started.
And so I will. Arise. Freeze my hand to the sword, just like Eleazar and fight the fight until Sissy is home safe and sound.
You can help.
Donate directly to our agency atPure Charity This is an amazing way to help us out! $20 donations also automatically enter you to win a housecleaning by my friend Mabel.
Donate to our FSP at Reece’s Rainbow. These funds will cover travel expenses.
Donate to our fund at Go Fund Me. This is where we raise money for ALL costs. (The two above our tax deductible.
Any amount helps, from $1 to $1000.
Donate items you make, items you sell, services your provide or gently used items with tons of life left in them from your home. We have a HUGE auction coming up and we need your participation!
Come to our bake sale Saturday morning. We will have TONS of goodies to tempt your tastebuds!