When you give birth to a baby, you see their first moments. The baby is born, she is placed on your chest, you nurse her or feed her. You hold her and marvel. Your breath catches. You realize your dreams and your imaginings of what she would be like are nothing compared to who she really is.
You breathe her in. These are holy moments.
These are those moments with my daughter, Lila.
When you adopt a child, it is different. The first moment I saw Sisi, I was in a car in a foreign country. She was standing in the window of her foster home and I could see her jumping up and down saying, “Mama Chris! Daddy John!”
The first time I held her was in her home and she was big and beautiful and excitement was all around us. It was different, but still holy.
Sisi became my daughter in an office. We hugged her close and marveled.
It has been two months since we stepped off that airplane onto American soil with our newest daughter.
It’s been a wild ride.
But here we are. I love Sisi as wholeheartedly and as fully as I love my other six children. I love her fiercely. I have crossed oceans for her, I have walked through fire day by day.
She is beautiful, she is fearfully and wonderfully made. She is wild, filled with Great Big Feelings- love, rage, laughter, mischief. It’s amazing to watch her learning English at the speed of light. It’s amazing to watch her interact with her sisters and her brother. I love how much she loves her brother in law and her dear friend, Chichco Musica. I love watching her at Busch Gardens or going down a slide. I love watching her figure out English words and I love how she tells us Bulgarian words.
I love her wild hair and her long eyelashes. I love her ferocity and tenacity.
It’s been hard but every day, it gets a little easier.
I think to myself, what if we didn’t answer the call?
We could have missed this.
On March 11, 2015, we went to Next Level Church to hear Jen Hatmaker speak. It was the most amazing talk. When it was winding down, she challenged all who were present to “put their yes on the table” for God. John and I stood there with our palms uplifted and we put our yes on the table.
We put our “yes” on the table.
A short time later, we saw this photo on Reece’s Rainbow.
And it was time to put action to our “yes”.
It took 19 months. 19 months of paperwork and jumping through hoops and panic over missed deadlines and So Much Fundraising.
19 months to bring this child into our family.
And now we are two months into her being home. And I have no regrets. My yes is still on the table. And I still say, “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders.”
I have a challenge for you. And I’m not saying you have to adopt, but would you go to Reece’s Rainbow or Rainbow Kids or Adopt Us Kids, choose a child’s profile. Print it off and pray. Pray for that child like you would if they were yours. Do it everyday. Put your “yes” on the table and see where it takes you.
Don’t miss what God has for you.